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Sunday, January 3, 2010 12:04 AM 2010..so fast..what have i been doing for 2009? Haha at least..i found a job. Not that useless right? And..shit..iam 23 this year! Omg. When will i be turning straight. Family : Nothing change. They still neglected me as usual. Kind of like immune to it already. Friends : I love them:) Love : I might lost her anytime, any moments..but now..I shall let it be this way. Monday, December 28, 2009 11:18 PM At least..iam happy that you faced your feelings. Isn't it very cruel to lie to your heart? So is the brain evil? I know things now are not that perfect..but iam contented. I don't dare to hope for more. Just you by my side. That's enough. It may sound silly..but at least that's what i feel now. Hmm worried..because after we part..you didn't reply my message..was thinking..is your mum questioning you? Are you safely home? Just a message to let me know that you are fine.. Friday, December 18, 2009 12:33 AM 幸好这里还有我的一个小小世界。 If everyday you will to tell me you are afraid that one day you really can't accept everything, if one day you still can't bring yourself step out the steps. If one day here and there.. I wonder when will i collapses. If everyday you will to think about negatives stuffs, then how do u able to make yourself believe and do it? God please..make us together. Because we are stuck with each other. Monday, December 14, 2009 12:53 AM I didn't know that i will have the chance to hold your hand. I don't know how to face myself actually. I always asked you this question.. What are we? Your reply is always..very good friend, best friend..bleh bleh..the lastest answer from you is we are Soulmate. But I just get to hold your hand yesterday. Why? Because you feel really touch by all the things i've done for you or you do not know how to reject it?.. Or..do we actually have a chance to proceed on? And..yes, i will be your 1st and only girlfriend and your 1st relationship? The answer is clueless..totally. I feel quite troubled actually. I know i shouldn't hold your hands but I can't help it..my heart totally control every of my brain cells. If at that point of time, you rejected me by pushing my hands away, things will be much better off for us but..u accepted it. So?.. I know...iam totally defeated. Sink too deep. Drown again. Sigh~ Saturday, December 12, 2009 1:12 AM Sometimes i just wonder why i don't have the time to be alone in the office. Sometimes i just wanna keep myself away from the others. But people care, people asked. I know its bad n rude to reject concern from people n so..i can't be alone. I have been quiet for about 3 days. Keeping away from you, having thoughts..thinking all by myself. Hopefully my feelings just fade away. But...you tried asking me again n again. I've got no choice but to be happy today because its your bday celebrations. I can be happy if i want to..i realized that:) But deep down..i know it myself. Keart, you are totally defeated. Glad that you like my card :) Thank you:) Sunday, December 6, 2009 1:53 AM My saturday mood was...bad. I don't know why. Maybe just some people spoilt my day by saying some stupid words. I don't know why i have to take up all this shit. And its always me who doesn't fight back. But..how i wish i could fight back. I can't because she likes her very much as a friend. So? Everything bound back to me..and i got to take it. Sometimes..i wonder what am i to the people that likes me or the people i like. Sometimes..i just hope my brain is better then my heart. If that's so, i won't be feeling so often of the sharp, intense pain in it. Sunday, November 29, 2009 11:40 PM I don't like the way iam being treated as transparent. I don't like the way that you think you can live without me but i can't live without you. I don't like the way that everything is following of what you think. I don't like the way that without you, my life is incomplete. Vitamin C, let me tell you this. If i will to given an options : 1. I wun even bother to take a 2nd glance of you. 2. I wun even bother to let anything goes according to you. 3. I wun even let u have a sec chance to think that i can't live without you. We will chatting in the message then suddenly our topic is about a guy. Then you said actually he's quite caring towards me..those small actions and stuffs like that. OIE! IN YOUR EYES, YOU HAVE ONLY OTHER GUYS. WHAT ABOUT ALL THE THINGS THAT I DO FOR YOU?! DO FOR EVERYONE?! Did you ever comments, tell, or praise me? FUCKING NO. WHY?! Because you don't see it! Everything..EVERYTHING that i do is just a bubble burst out in the air! Isn't it?! Arghh iam damn pissed. Fuck! |